HFY

Tough

2012-02-15T21:47:00.002+08:00

Life's probably going to be tough sometime. Calm seas do not make a good sailor. I stand here again, facing my flaws, hurting.

Perhaps, I'm taking for granted the fact that I am still alive, breathing, able to change my circumstances. We all blessed, a fact that we forget from time to time.

I will get better and run this. I will be stronger.

Tomorrow is another day all together.

A Smile for a smile

2012-02-13T11:49:00.002+08:00

I guess I am at this stage with you. I remains to be clear to me what is really in your heart. But I know we've invested a bit of emotions in this. How we got close and how you've confided with me at your darkest hours took me by surprise. I hope I'm more than just an option.

I've shown you I'm more than able though. I think its clear in a woman's eyes the intentions of a man. I've been sincere. I understand the progression though. The subtleties in courting.

Well, whatever tomorrow brings, I"ll be there, with open arms and open eyes.

But since yesterday, I've been longing. The force is strong in this one.

Shores

2012-02-10T22:05:00.001+08:00

For his queen, any man will become a warrior, a king to his kingdom. I bear all that I need, to have you be at peace. For you give me the joy of fulfillment. The satisfaction of being a man.

As the first child of my family I'm born to lead and bare the responsibility that comes with it.

When you requite my affection, as a man, I feel whole. As long as this lasts, I seek no other. I am here for you.

Cut You Off

2012-02-04T12:57:00.001+08:00

This feels like message from above. As I try to find answers to questions I was asking yesterday, I stumbled upon again this gem by Kendrick Lamar. I"ll give the same commitment to people who requites my affection. For those who took it for granted, I'm cutting you off.

Requited

2012-02-04T00:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I find myself hoping that people give me their best, as I would for them. I know, this might sound selfish but at this point of my life I find myself thinking about the relationships that I have with people and maintaining them. I mean, we can acquire, but how many really know how to keep what we have well?

Its so easy to take anything in life for granted that its a joke and I'm really trying hard to remember that. How does one maintain relationships you have built throughout the years when you're the only one trying? Or maybe even giving an effort to it? We get caught up in the busyness of our daily lives, blaming time whilst what people need is a bit of your time and care. Not things or money.

Most of the time, its not that people don't have time. They're too ignorant to find it.

I am a man, with love flowing through my veins, for people I care most about. I'm always there and I try my best for them. They deserve nothing less. As I keep on maturing and understanding the ways of the world, I understand that nothing is worth more than the good times we spend with our loved ones. That is why I always try to make myself better, stronger so that I can love them better.

I do feel alone in situations like this. I realize I am an affectionate man and believe me, even hearing your voice, calms my soul. I miss you and everything that you are. Its tiring, being the only one trying. But I love you none the less. I love you, none the less.

Cahaya

2012-01-30T00:20:00.001+08:00

"Lilin ini, takkan padam, seandainya engkau adalah sumbunya"

At this stage, I still don't know where your heart lies. You got me thinking a lot. 2 weeks away from each other is quite a burden for perhaps a new love to take.

I don't know what tomorrow brings. What I know, I'm savoring every second of it.

Its Heavy on My Shoulders

2012-01-22T11:30:00.001+08:00

I only ask to love and be loved. Is that so much to ask? I'm ready to give my heart again this time but it seems like the sound of my claps are barely making a sound. The illusion of hope visits me again.

I'm no fool to no one. Fuck this, fuck you and I"ll strip myself of my emotions piece by piece and I"ll play this game with my wit. I"ll play you with my best cards, one that is dealt by me.

I"ll be the one setting the rules, and I"ll win.

Close

2012-01-19T08:08:00.001+08:00

God is kind. He let me meet you.

Pearls

2012-01-15T14:14:00.005+08:00

I do not take you for granted. I appreciate even the memories and experiences of someone who left me. What more to say about someone who is in my present.

Hurt

2012-01-14T18:34:00.001+08:00

Pent up feelings, caught up in being busy. At these times of not fully being contented with things, I have a few things in question, in my mind. Its been tough though. Taking 7 subjects in a semester is no joke. Especially when the submission dates come and attack you.

But I am alive. Still loving life.

Heart Soul

2012-01-08T02:46:00.002+08:00

"I ain't a perfect man, I'm trying to do, the best that I can, with what it is I have"
"Tomorrow may never come, for you and me, life is not promised"

Mos Def - Umi Says

This song will be played throughout my life. To every triumph or failure, it"ll be there to help me make sense of everything.

Writing here finally, hello 2012.

For Whom It May Concern

2011-12-11T08:42:00.001+08:00

I've sailed my boat, for another try on love. I've been hiding behind my craft and all the work that comes with it, without any intention to court one who might tickle my fancy. To be honest, this gets me weary. The fulfillment that comes with a loving relationship, evens the weight that one carry on their shoulders.

So here I am, facing risks that comes with it. I barely survived the last one, but I am now wiser. I am hopeful. Life is so frail that, we might not know what tomorrow brings, or if tomorrow might come. I find that it does take a lot of you to open up to someone. I am here again, just less skilled in the art of courtship. I am out of practice.

Nonetheless, I've met some wonderful women this time around. Setting my sights clearly to this cause works wonders and I couldn't believe in the amount of luck I had, in terms of the circumstances and who I met. When you want to become someone that another person might need and want, you"ll always look deep inside yourself whether you're a person worthy enough of that.

I have faith that I am far from ordinary and I've achieved and will achieve more than the next man can. My kind of thinking is the type that can change the environments I am in. But what's a man, without a good woman by his side? I know, I am more than able but it feels like nothing when you feel that void inside. But I know what I can offer. I stand behind it, I guarantee it.

Throughout the years, I've tested myself to be the best for my family and friends. These qualities I think makes a man, and I am more than prepared to be everything that a woman needs, and hopefully all that she wants. She"ll be the main motivation, the inspiration of my hustles.

For now, I can only imagine the man I can be, and what I can achieve with you in my life. But I hope you"ll come soon enough, so that I can make the world ours.

Love.

Unspoken words

2011-11-30T00:24:00.001+08:00

"you're so good. you define perfect"

At Odds

2011-11-29T22:40:00.001+08:00

I find myself looking deep for strength. Well inside my depths of faith. There is always meaning to either my pains or my pleasures and this is no exception. I acknowledge that I have grown strong throughout the years, stronger than what I thought I could be. The journey has not been easy.

This might be a challenge to test me, again, in that maybe I have not learned my lesson. I've tried my best to read the omens, and follow my personal legend. I'm still afloat, treading water. I know this, my hustle continues, and I"ll always be guided by my view and love of life. I'm trying my best to be the man I aspire to become.

My actions and thoughts has always been sincere, has always put not just my own but everyone else's that mattered to me with the best of intentions. I"ll always be stronger than the average joe, even when I'm at my weakest.

That's the man I should be, to love and hopeful that I am loved as well.

Cyclical

2011-11-24T23:20:00.001+08:00

I'm eager to be in love with someone. I've been walking a lone path, as far as I could. I get weary, but I remain strong in my battles. Just imagine who I can be with a lover by my side.

I love this beautiful feeling inside. That fire inside you that yearns to burn stronger and lit the skies at night. I've shown every single soul around me that I'm more than able. I have so much in front of me and what is all this for if I don't have anyone to share it with.

If you're mine, the world is ours.

Quote of the day

2011-10-21T17:01:00.000+08:00

"I have the revolution on my mind, hustle in my heart and healing at the tip of my tongue. I AM KING"

Words of a Rebel

2011-09-21T00:04:00.001+08:00

What inspires you?

Really being in the present moment is the most inspiring place I can take myself to. Making love inspires me. Seeing all the love around me inspires me. Healthy, happy people inspire me!

Mike Giant of Rebel8

Life in slow motion.

2011-09-19T08:25:00.002+08:00

That awesome moment when you're undressing each other.

Cool

2011-08-18T14:04:00.003+08:00

I let go of the dead weight and this is how my mind looks like. Chill.

Purple Haze

2011-08-18T13:58:00.000+08:00

You're the first girl I kissed in campus. It takes two to waltz, salsa and every other dance we experimented with. But it was short-lived as I fail to commit to the game. I got high off you for a bit. There's so much more that I wish I did with you. Definitely a good reminder to not get too comfortable. Sometimes good opportunities fall on my lap, and I should have enjoyed the lapdance.

Hidden Tales

2011-08-15T09:26:00.002+08:00

I think everyone has their own forbidden love story. Mine isn't quite a stretch, but risky enough. I loved the spontaneity of the situation, the venue and the occasion. I played almost all of my cards, threading dangerous waters. It was a rush I must say. She was hooked, she was under my spell. She wanted me more than I wanted her. A successful game.

Looking back at it if anyone would have found out about us, I would be done for. With the the circles involved, I don't know if anyone would have forgave me. But her courage to step up was charming to say the least. I was enjoying my prey. I was enjoying her. She has this kind off a raspy voice that I find, sexy. I was high, high of the encounter. A week long rush of adrenaline.

Its a pity I played my cards wrongly at the end. I could have sustained it a little longer or even build something that lasts. I was at my peak, looking for a good mistake. And I found it in her, and if saner minds prevail, I would have took it further to the levels of my wildest imaginations.

Fare well

2011-08-14T20:59:00.004+08:00

My words I've conceived, were dedicated to you. Now I look at myself and ask, who am I kidding? It has been 3 years now, and I still do feel emotions towards you. We had our moments, and I had my moments of realizations. I thought I was over it, but evidently I am not. Like a virus, it evolved, masking itself into different forms every time I formulated a cure for it.

I am a disillusioned tortured romanticist. But I am lucky, that I am also a thinker of sorts, trying to figure out how to live my life to the fullest and examining every experience. If my story of how I am the bullied weakling in high school who turned the situation around and became somewhat a cool person in the scene story is retold, you"ll find a correlation. I went through a lot of the mental abuse early, got over it and it laid the foundations of my constant contentment.

In a sense, I met her during my rise, and gotten close at the peak of my social skills. Now it taught me timeless lessons towards men and women relationships. I'm one of those good guys who takes an awful lot of time to fall in love, but also in getting over a person. At least that was who I was initially. She's a prerequisite of sorts. But I"ll only pass the test if I get over this wholly.

The rules of the game are:

1) If it doesn't work the first time, it would never work.

2) Women who have found themselves and are at peace with their insecurities are a gem.

3) Never forget to lead as a man. Never give total control.

4) Loyalty is number one. If she cheats, never give 2nd chances.

5) Always try to make yourself a man worthy of your ambitions, especially in women.

In the words of James Blunt,

"Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. You have been the one, you have been the one for me".

I have no regrets, and I loved you as best as I could.

The Cool: That Chill Swag

2011-08-12T10:06:00.004+08:00

Life doesn't have to be so damn hard. Make smart decisions, don't be lazy and always be acquiring knowledge on how to improve your quality of life.

Shift

2011-08-09T08:58:00.003+08:00

I think I've been writing less in my blog due to my access of quick venting on twitter. I always see it as a micro-blogging platform, and less off another way to connect with people. As the number of my "followers" increase, I've practiced a bit more restrain in my tweets but still I speak my mind.

Some of what I speak of are the results of my interactions of the day which in turn inspires thoughts and lines of words. We all have our own experiences that we'd still talk about from time to time whenever we are reminded of them. For me its not necessarily a present pleasure or pain, but echoes of the past that might be felt for a second, but it is just that. A fleeting thought.

When I do speak about love or women, it might not be just a particular person. But I must admit, one person do stand out as what I've experienced with her holds the most intense of emotions. Sometimes I do ask myself whether I am in love with the memory? Or her? As I have not been in contact with her as much as before. Hence, what she is now, may not be the person I fell for, in her entirety. We met at a very different stage of our lives and both of us has been through a lot since then. Some things do not change though.

But that's just it. Remnants of the past, reiterated through my current interactions. There's this romanticist part of me that idealizes moments of my past. In understand the reasons behind what I have and what I lack. I appreciate every facet and I barely complain about anything now. I'm hopeful, but I'm also patient.

SWAG

2011-07-27T11:16:00.002+08:00

Be cool, and handle everything with ease. That's true swag.

Balance'

2011-07-21T09:52:00.001+08:00

When your world is not in balance, you suffer. At the point of mastery, peace comes naturally and all your wants and needs are in line with reality.

To me, this is a sign of a master. Like wealth without freedom is nothing, like wealth without health is nothing. In order to keep this post as simple as possible, those two examples will be suffice.

I've yet to achieve true balance but I've found the point where happiness or more importantly contentedness is my default mode. I"ll perfect my craft and the world will be my playground, literally.

At the end of the day, I still have faith that, everything you do out of love, has a future.

On Another Level

2011-07-19T09:41:00.000+08:00

I woke up today feeling so hopeful and positive. Be ambitious, my subconscious said. I think about the beautiful possibilities life can offer and it fuels me with inspiration. Work for the best, and don't settle for less.

Mungkin Kau

2011-07-16T22:09:00.002+08:00

Mungkin kau bisa jadi ratu hati,
Mungkin kau bisa selamatkan aku dari mati, hati.

The Writer

2011-07-14T16:35:00.000+08:00

I have the sudden urge to write. For a big part of my life, I had the above average ability to put words together and make sense and its just part of my skill-set that have made my cents. Its just that I've never put the intensity or focus of what authors have when they write blog entries, newspaper articles or even books.

The past 8 weeks or so has seen a complete absence of writing from my blog. I have muscles that I have not flexed in quite awhile. In riding the wave that I am in, I've lost a bit of myself and rather took a back seat in a lot of things.

Hopefully, I"ll be in the right stride, sooner or later. Less distractions, more focus.

Troubled Thoughts

2011-07-12T17:36:00.002+08:00

I"ll treat you tender, kind and right.
Though the weight of the world, pushes you down, I"ll help carry the weight, through the day and night.

These feelings I feel for you, lets me make the best of me, strength that I never thought I had in me.
I find fulfillment, in seeing you smile, soothes my mind, my heart warm and mild.

Ease your mind, I know we get weary. Swearing is crude, I have faith that you're my one and only.
Rest your thoughts, I"ll always be here, not there. I"ll always be here for you, I'm going nowhere.

This heart is yours, your the reason it beats. To me you're perfection, from your head till your feet.
At the end of the day, it has always been you, and god must have wanted to show off, when he made you.

All Set Up

2011-07-08T10:31:00.000+08:00

My partner in crime for all 3 days of Rainfest, Mr.Kazlan Ali, back from Johor for a bit. Can't wait to party for the next 3 days!

The Irony

2011-06-28T15:40:00.002+08:00

I attended my first Rainforest Music Festival or Rainfest in short when I was 17 which was in 2005. I was instantly hooked. The atmosphere, the people and the music at night captivated me. It was something that I had never experienced before. Never would I have thought, such event would have existed here at my own backyard.

Fast forward a few years, I've attended a few and missed it for the past 2 years as I was in Cyberjaya. I was determined to attend this year's and I have kept that in mind all these while. I kept picturing what I've been through, just good times chilling with my closest friends and enjoying the occasion. It was like a slap in the face when none of them would not be in Kuching during the event. I'm left desperately trying to find people to go to the festival with. I even tried using google just to try my luck.

I've already bought my 3 day pass and I'm planning to attend it on the 2nd and 3rd day. It would be a crying shame if I am attending this alone. Well, 9 days to go. The search continues.

RDZ - Kongsi

2011-06-20T23:11:00.002+08:00

My brother, Sarawak's finest, RDZ doing his thing. Check out his latest video here.

Sole

2011-06-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

Solemn.

Quote of the day

2011-06-12T20:31:00.001+08:00

"Average people are not rich. Rich people are not average."

Find an area where you can be ABOVE AVERAGE in, then, you could earn ABOVE AVERAGE salary.

Dreamer 101

No Hay Nada Mas

2011-06-11T17:52:00.000+08:00

There Is Nothing Else

Good one, thin
Call me thin, but my first name is Jaci Andante (the one who walks)
The last name the one who pays

Listen
That I am witness
The beauty, the danger is different, of course it is the truth
The street, the town
The cottages and centers

City quality no better, worse
War and life, love and change
Food that is being kept
Pistol, this prayer is for them
Women and men
Family, upbringing
The light in the distance

I want and say
Good is closerMy sight, my house, my dreams, my soul
I want to know and feel your embrace
And your contact

Show me something
Amen

Of course, of course, of course, yes
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
The end
There is nothing else

Of course, of course, of course, yes
There is nothing else
And there is nothing else
The end

There is nothing else
Of course, of course, of course, yes

English Swag

2011-06-04T08:34:00.000+08:00

John Rushton By Ivan Ogilvie from Ivan Ogilvie on Vimeo.

Dress shoes, one passionate man, and jazz. This is video features renowned shoe retailer John Rushton at his shop at London's West End.

Class.

Let's Build

2011-06-02T10:42:00.002+08:00

There is an amazing sense of reality, humility, funk and positivity in this song. At this point of his career, Q-Tip, part of the legendary A Tribe Called Quest collective makes grown men music. Being at this point, at my age, this cool calm and intellectual mode is what I aspire to be.

A man who handles his business but approaches matters with such grace that comes only with experience. I've found myself and know who I want to be. I still do feel that one must always have moments of reflection. Like looking in the mirror and making sure you are being who you need to be. I always knew that what separates me from the rest is my thinking. I mean, everyone has their own gifts. It's equally important to know what you have and what you can do with it.

I must admit, I am an idealist. I still hold it firmly that "Everything you do out of love, has a future". I think the phrase after multiple revisions that I made to the WHY in whatever I do is, "I live to make myself and my loved ones happy". This seems to strikes a cord more than the the ones before. I've found the right body of knowledge to compliment this and at 23, it was the biggest revelation in my life. I've seen how my thoughts evolved throughout the years and having people who are also pursuing greatness has helped immensely to shape it.

I think by now everyone knows my core culture that I excel in is hip hop. Though I think it's widely misunderstood with all the music and music videos that people see in the mainstream media right now, I know at it's purest form, it is uplifting and positive. Everyone has their own main source of reference. From what they wear, to what they listen to and this influences how they perceive things. Because music shoots straight to the soul. There's nothing like it.

With that I have visions of the style I'm aiming for. It's part of the culture to dress fresh. I'm taking marketing and I know how this works. Appearance matter and it's the first thing that speaks about you. That's when people make a summary of who you are as a person and shapes their eyes on how to perceive you.

1. Hats

Flat Cap/Hunting Cap

I like this classic look and it can be rocked at any age. I've seen old people wear it and they looked mad fly.

Fitted Cap

This is pretty much self explanatory. I've started rocking one again after quite a long while. This has pretty much defined hip hop and streetwear throughout the years.

5 Panel Cap

It's the current emerging style and I've developed a fondness for it. Definitely will add variation to my style.

2. Shirts

Oxford Shirt

Source

www.superwowomg.com

I just love the mature and timeless look. I can see myself rocking these casually especially Uniqlo's.

Plain Tee's Crew neck or V neck

This is pretty much self-explanatory. Simple and basic with the right fitting speaks class.

3. Pants

Slim fit Selvedge Denim

Source

Japanese Selvedge denim is the most highly regarded of its kind. This is what separates the usual and those in the know. With the right construction and understanding of its characteristics, this is a staple of street style.

Shorts

I'm returning to this style as I find it to be very convenient. It's summer now so at other parts of the world, they are rocking this style as well. I guess, there's influence there.

4. Shoes

Boat Shoes

To be exact, Vans Zapato Del Barcos. This is the pair that I have, coupled with shorts like the style aforementioned above, is the preferred style at the moment for me.

I think as I grow, my style is changing to that more mature, timeless and classy look. I guess, a change in the mind, is reflected in the change of style.

Can I Live?

2011-05-20T18:29:00.003+08:00

This is an amazing rendition of one of Jay-Z's classic track. Swagged out visuals as well. Visions of the good life. I"ll watch this every time I need an extra boost of inspiration.

HBTV: Patta & Precint 5

2011-05-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

The people from Patta doing it big in Holland. Living the dream.

When You Are Old

2011-05-04T13:43:00.000+08:00

When you are old and gray and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

--William Butler Yeats

Sepet

2011-05-02T22:06:00.001+08:00

Stumbled upon this trailer while surfing youtube today. She taught me a lot about life. This film is one of my favorite. Never had the chance to meet her but Yasmin Ahmad, I love you.

Al-Fatihah.

Supercat

2011-05-02T13:31:00.002+08:00

One of the weird things you"ll find in /K/

Eyes Wider Than Before

2011-05-01T22:08:00.000+08:00

"So little has change but my eyes has seen so much more"

Maktub

2011-04-30T02:37:00.002+08:00

There is an extraordinary sense of belief that people who are dreamers carry with themselves. That swagger. You"ll see it when you meet them. Like what I've learned through Paulo Coelho's masterpiece, The Alchemist.

“When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things that
happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.”

“In order to find the treasure, you will have to follow the omens. God has prepared a path for everyone to follow. You just have to read the omens that he left you.”

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”

“When you are in love, things make even more sense, he thought.”

“I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living now.”

“When you are loved, you can do anything in creation. When you are loved, there’s no need at all
to understand what’s happening, because everything happens within you.”

I do not know whether I will get the opportunity to have children. I may or may not. But these lessons I've learned in life I hope to share it to loved ones and in my dreams my children. Like the first thing I"ll teach them is that me and my wife (whoever she might be), love them with all our heart. The second thing is to love life. God is great and life is beautiful.

Just passing thoughts. An open heart, a calm soul and a hopeful mind.

Lost in Emotions

2011-04-29T01:11:00.002+08:00

I guess I'm just lost in my thoughts and emotions. Seeing the little things that you do, makes me happy. I don't really wanna think about tomorrow. I'm still here, and that I know what I feel is real. At least I don't go around telling people, I just etch it in my blog.

No one reads my blog anyways.

I read your thoughts, I can tell a lot of things. You might not even know who are my thoughts directed to in the timeline. I"ll let things happen, however it may be, and pray it is all for the best. I've survived a lot of heartbreaks, and they made me strong. I've been there where I've lost my belief in life. When your heart is broken, nothing else seem to work.

But I survived that, it felt as I was reborn. I live to make myself and my love ones happy. I need to live the time that is god given to me and I swear to not let myself be as low as that anymore. I'm not afraid to love, I'm not afraid to lose. There's nothing lost when you love. You only lose when you start to hate. I think we can love or give, but don't expect to receive. Keep it sincere. Don't be selfish.

And even if you don't love me back, I"ll never hate you. Because, it's just how I feel and no one is to blame.

Maybe people think using the word love is too strong. I'd say, anything that makes you happy and you enjoy it, that's love.

Loving you, makes me happy, simply.

Hiroki Nakamura of Visvim

2011-04-27T11:47:00.000+08:00

HBTV: Hiroki Nakamura - F.I.L. Wan Chai from HBTV on Vimeo.

In part of the second FIL store opening in Hong Kong, HypebeastTV caught up with Visvim's founder, Hiroki Nakamura and gave an insightful interview.

I liked the part way he's always trying to take it to the next level.

Inspiring.

Never Forget

2011-04-26T18:27:00.000+08:00

The less you fear, the more power you will have and the more fully you will live.

Lights will guide you home.

2011-04-26T09:57:00.003+08:00

I am no stranger to disappointments. For a big part of my life I've been the underdog. I'm not sure if people can tell from the current form that I am in but it's certainly apart of me. This confidence you might see now was paved with moments of self-doubt and cemented with my journey of soul searching.

"My lessons I collect them like blessings"

At the least, I don't walk like I have a chip on my shoulder.

"Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself. Passion, takes over me"

People who have their own art to pursue seem to be the happiest bunch of people in the world. It demands that you take a closer look on life and let your interpretations of it show in your art. At least I'd say, most of the interesting people I've met have better appreciation of life and fun to be with too. Compelling goals, a closer look on things helps you get into the most extraordinary conversations.

I love conversations. It's one of my most favorite things in the world. Over coffee or tea, or anything that can help you sit back, kick back , relax and talk. It's as if you can see the world to another person's eyes, perspective. I mean, different angles of how god's green earth is beautiful fills your soul.

I think falling in love humbles you. Remember the times when you suddenly fell down in public, in front of a lot of people? At an instant you feel embarrassed and shy but yet you muster all your strength brush the dust off you and stand up. It's a mix of that and being elated while thinking how can a person be this beautiful? God must have wanted to show of when he made you.

"A mix of awe and humility, a bit of sweet and sour."

Probably that's my take on it. That's how I feel. I must admit it can be overwhelming at times. But, I won't let it rob the artistry in loving someone. I think I'm a more mature person since the last time and I am not afraid or ashamed to fall in love. I don't want to force it either. I want to attract her with who I already am, and who I can be for her. If she is attracted to me and feels the same way and I swear to god I will not waste it.

It is for me as a man, to treat you right. To be all you need, and hopefully all that you want.

And if we came to be someday, I"ll pray to be only yours.

Current Obsession

2011-04-24T05:10:00.000+08:00

I need a pair of Zapatos Del Barco from Vans. I love the simplicity and the sophistication of it and it compliments my current view of style.

Blow

2011-04-24T04:55:00.001+08:00

I've been wanting to write something but couldn't get myself to. I've been thinking too much I guess. I wanted to get the ball rolling hence the purpose of this post. I'm doing good. The people I know and miss stretch from China to Melbourne.

I just need to remind myself to avoid any drama like always and be clear of what I want to do.

Never forget the artistry of life. Like a skilled craftsman, the perfection of every detail will define the overall picture. The difference between a master and an amateur is the approach of the process. A master is patient and aims to execute at the highest level possible.

Remember, compete at the upper echelons. It's too crowded down there. Don't loose the hunger, you've been comfortable for far too long. Everyone's moving. Don't look at those around you. Compete at an international level.

Swag.

French

2011-04-19T16:22:00.002+08:00

This video just signifies what Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All is all about.

SWAG.

In Love With Life

2011-04-07T13:06:00.006+08:00

I can list out and articulate all the things I've enjoyed and been through in life but the most beautiful thing I"ll ever experience is to love and be loved.

To me, loving another person should be like the other things you love in life, like a brand of shoes that you like, you're favorite movie, your favorite anime and cetera cetera. It should make you happy, it should be fun, and it should give you the feeling of excitement.

But it is deeper than that for people. Love should be accepting who you are and giving, it's understanding, it is kind, it might hurt once in awhile and it should be mutual. Love should teach you how to be the better you.

Love is like a plant. It could die if you don't nurture it and love might leave. Love is about not being selfish, love is considering what the other half feels. A heart can be strong, but it can be very fragile as well. So be cautious.

But life is short and if you love who you are as a person, if you love life, love will find you, always.

Gentlemen and romantics are a dying breed. To love without being corny is a subtle art. Well, I try.

Inside-Out

2011-04-06T23:12:00.001+08:00

"I"ll drown my beliefs, to have you be at peace"

This is one of my favorite songs from Radiohead and it spoke what I had in mind not a long while back.

Let's Take A Long Walk

2011-04-04T18:42:00.003+08:00

"Maybe we can talk about Surah 31:18"

I love people who are adventurous as well as intellectual. We can explore the world physically, mentally as well as spiritually. Things that I'd expect from my significant other.

Rebel Intellect

2011-04-02T21:49:00.003+08:00

Odd Future Wofgang Kill Them All (OFWGKTA) is a fresh new movement in hip hop and music and this guy is the leader of the pack. Their style reminds me a lot of Eminem circa 1999 and it is refreshing and has re-ignited the rebellious side of me.

I'm nearing adulthood but this reminded me to hold fast to youth. Fuck structure, I prefer controlled chaos. Take risks as walking on tightropes helps us to avoid comfort and complacency.

To and Fro

2011-03-27T16:16:00.003+08:00

Source

*picture me walking back and forth because that's how my mind feels like at the moment. Just thinking*

Some questions you've asked a lot of times in your life a long time ago, you"ll still ask till this very day and probably still in the future. At different phases of our lives, we go through different things and our perspective changes and it's funny how the same things might be viewed and acted upon differently. So there we are either learning for the experiences we've been through and making better decisions or the opposite of that.

Something got me thinking again, pondering about it again. I've been at two extreme ends of relationships but at the end of the day, I"ll go back to the core of my thinking. When I had flings, it was fun and no strings attached so there were less emotions involved. Still, I was nice and I never broke anyone's heart. It was mere fun for both sides.

Having been through that and looking back, I'm that serious type when it comes to real relationships. If I feel deeply about a person, I am prepared to go all the way. In one instance I told a friend that I could see me and her growing old. Unfortunately it didn't work out but I made it clear to her that she's one of the best experiences I've ever been through. Like what I've written before in my blog, it's in the dreams that we don't achieve that we may find great wisdom from.

I'm still learning about myself, about my growth and the man I want to be. Blogging has always been a good way to explore.

I find that if I have feelings for a person, I can be quite a shy person. Back in high school I had this girl that I liked. As naive or raw as it was, I felt that other girls' beauty are irrelevant. As pretty or beautiful as they may be, the only one is my mind was her and her only. Now I think this part of me still lives. As much as the details may change, I started out as a nice guy, that introverted shy boy.

It's insulting to me when I hear from people I know that even though they were in relationships, there were acts that sounded to me like they're taking it for granted and for some reason they took it lightly and had thoughts or interactions with other females. If you're in a position to commit, commit whole-heartedly. Don't go into one if you can't.

As for me, I'm looking for a fulfilling relationship where both sides compliment each other. I may not know exactly how people view me, but for those who are close to me, I'm the type of man you can depend on, I'm a brother to a lot of people and I try my best to be there everytime they needed me. Hopefully I've helped as they had shaped my mind too, I try to pass on knowledge that empowers.

I need someone mature, who can understand me and take care of herself. There's no doubt in my mind that I can be a man for her and see that every need she has for a man is fulfilled. I have some radical ideas that I might live by and I'm dead serious when it comes to bringing my dreams to come true. I've been in the journey of self-improvement of 8 years since I had my eyes open to the possibilities and always looking to make myself a better man. I've been blessed to be with people who shares the same beliefs that we are more than what we've been taught of the lives we can live.

Amidst all of these words spoken, I might not know the best words to express how I feel rightfully but I know my heart is in the right place. In a good relationship with the right person will undoubtedly make both of them better people.

My goal is simple, to be a good man that loves and appreciates his lover to the best of his abilities.

Maktub.

Recent

2011-03-24T00:37:00.003+08:00

Despite the worldly troubles and humanly flaws that I have, it feels so good to be alive,

simply.

Old is Gold

2011-03-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

I think old is gold. I'm looking forward to growing up gracefully. The idea of getting wiser and being more able to take care of the ones you love, see the world and making your dreams a reality is what I think about everyday.

If you do what you love, with cool people that you enjoy working with, is a worthy goal to spend each second of being to achieve.

These are just my mere thoughts. I live my life with contentment and excitement of what tomorrow brings.

Live With Swagger

2011-03-09T04:51:00.000+08:00

"I ain't no perfect man, I'm trying to do, the best that I can, with what it is I have" Mos Def - Umi Says

If I have to describe by what ideals that I want to achieve with living my life by 3 words it would be style, intellect and class.

Life is still an ever interesting mystery to me. I still struggle, but not as much. Still in the search of getting the right balance to live good.

Let each day come as a chance to be better.

Love's Divine

2011-03-06T18:08:00.005+08:00

Seal - love's divine

I had to apologize to myself for being angry, for being disappointed. Things might happen differently if I'd took care of the situation better. At this stage of my life, I find that I'm contented most of the time and that I have very few complains.

I had to calm myself down, and really understand why and how to remedy these emotions that lingered in my mind today. We human sometimes just trouble ourselves unnecessarily. We always try to put blame on others, and always try to dwell on the problem rather than the solution. The big themes that's been influencing how I live my life for these past few years is looking at the perspective of love. The root of everything one does. I've been quite an idealist. I want to do what I love, live the life I love and love my loved ones well. I've put my life into this simple formula.

The simpler version would be to love and be loved. This is how my decision making process works. I want to do things in ways that I love and if the situation gives me something that is not in my preference, I'd change it until it's something that I love. I mean, if what you do is unconventional, this drives you because the monetary gains or people's support might not be there, yet. We just got to make it happen and believe everything that you do out of love, has a future.

So back to today's situation, it pains me to feel unhappy. It's a state that I seldom feel now. I think love conquers all. Love is understanding, love is kind. Love heals all pain. I feel free. It might sound corny or simplistic to some but, love forgives and hopes for the best. And patience is love translated into action.

I'm better off being happy and this is how I live my life.

Bjork-Undo

2011-03-01T11:02:00.001+08:00

If you're bleeding
Undo
And if you're sweating
Undo
If you're crying,
darling
Undo

I've always had a fetish for Bjork. Reminds me why I am attracted to people who are artistically inclined. They just appreciate life much better and live intensely with love, and cross the boundaries that people usually live with.

Best of Me

2011-02-20T20:45:00.001+08:00

We have a finite amount of time on earth. Spend it with people who are worth every bit of your time. It's worth more than money. Money spent, can be made again. Time once spent, you can never get it back. I'm just reassessing this area of my life as a few things kept me thinking. To be honest I don't ask much from people. All I ask are the few basic necessities for a good relationship among people and of course for people I value the most, I'd aspect a tad more.

I've given and risked a lot for the ones I love and you can never underestimate that.

From time to time, we assess ourselves, we assess the people around us and decide who's real. Because undoubtedly some people will only seek you when they need you for something. Those people, will only bother to talk to you play a part in their interest. On normal terms, you wouldn't even cross their minds. The real ones, at just the mention of your name would think of asking you out to go and chill. They"ll put effort from time to time to talk to you and ask how you are. They"ll remember important dates like your birthday, like how would to theirs. Importantly, be there when you need them the most.

I'm not the type to disappear when I'm in a relationship as well. Don't get it twisted.

I've proven to people in a regular basis how I've carried the weight. I've been in leadership positions more than the average joe. I have people that depend on me and I see to that they're doing well from time to time. They'd share their joys, as well as their sorrows. They"ll tell you because you are concerned about them. I'm growing up, trying as hard as I can to refine my flaws and grow as a man with responsibilities. I want to give the people I love, family and friends the best of me, the best I can, every time while I'm still alive.

People you love are worth more than money or things. For me, each time I spend with them is a blessing. That's why I try hard to be a better man. I'm just so disappointed in you. I wished you'd take time to care. Know that whenever you needed me, I was always there, despite the problems I had. I tried. It's time for me to sign out from this friendship as well.

We're Nothing But Actors, And All The World's A Stage

2011-02-16T05:22:00.002+08:00

Law 38: Think As You Like But Behave Like Others

I just don't want to play the same game everyone else is playing. I've said it before and probably will be one of the defining themes in my life. I've owned this book for almost 6 years now and I'm still trying to master every principle it has taught me. Today, this law is playing in my mind.

How often do we find ourselves get sucked in other people's arguments? Take offense of other people's thoughts? Or extensively judge other people's views or way of life? Do they really effect us in a major way? Most of the time they don't. Once we get sucked in though, it takes so much of our time, attention and emotional stress to get out of it. We"ll say things we don't really mean or attack someone personally without anything to be gain and everything to loose.

I'm over this phase and I'm signing out of it. Sometimes we focus too much on the hate, which is probably out of our own insecurities anyways that we forgot to love. Stupid people will do what they're meant to do anyways, stupid things. No matter how we try to talk some sense to them. Being true to the law, I have quite a radical thinking with thoughts most people might find offensive. I just don't need to argue or preach my thoughts just to shine my ego.

The only thing that achieves is putting myself out there as an open target. A big majority of the people will just accept what is told to them. They don't think. Once you go against the norm or try to stand out too much, they"ll try to burn you alive. Any rational arguments will just go to deaf ears. Again, any word out of you will be deemed heretical. What kind of truth do you follow if any kind of questioning of it is frowned upon? Shouldn't further questioning deepens understanding and weeds out fiction?

Smart people shouldn't get sucked into the drama. We should view it as comedy instead for leisure, and move on to actually live our lives. That's why I love being with passionate people who are artists in their own realms. They're constantly in the work to make their lives beautiful.

I"ll only talk to those with an open mind. Only those type can appreciate, articulate and converse matters objectively while respecting other people's thoughts.

Personality Type

2011-02-12T15:43:00.001+08:00

Took a personality test and here are the results.

E -Explorer - 27%	N -Negotiator - 23%
B -Builder - 24%	D -Director - 26%

You are an EXPLORER / director

You are a skywalker. You love adventure, both intellectual and physical. And you greet new challenges with passion and bravery.

When you get interested in a project, you can become extremely focused on it, sometimes to the exclusion of all around you. You complete it carefully and thoroughly, often with great originality.

And because you have a lot of energy and tend to be enthusiastic about your ideas, inventions, and projects, you can be very persuasive.

You tend to like to collect things, experiences or ideas. And you are eager to make an impact on those around you, as well as the wider world.

Although you enjoy people and can be charming and humorous, you are not very interested in routine social engagements or boring people. You are comfortable being by yourself, pursuing your own interests.

People probably call you a non-conformist, an original. You like to have good conversations on important topics. People tend to admire you for your innovativeness. You make an exciting, though at times distant, companion.

Patience

2011-02-10T01:35:00.001+08:00

Amazing video from one of my favorite songs from the duo. Currently finding it hard to contain a few emotions and issues I have at the moment. This song fits now.

Supermagic

2011-02-08T07:24:00.005+08:00

"Definitely out of dopeness"

Self-Exam

2011-02-07T02:47:00.007+08:00

Source

"The superior man is modest in his speech, but exceeds in his actions."

Confucius

I find that the harsh words people speak are the ones which comes from their own insecurities. Some people just need to talk bad about other people, to feel good about themselves. Secure and confident people think and talk less of other people's bad traits and focus more on their own business. Most of the time, what you ignore, cannot hurt you. Some things are in the spur of the moment thing and we might joke around or rant about what we see to the people closest to us during or after that situation. Going on talking about them in social networks brings bad taste when its blatant.

Knowing this, it made me more conscious of how secure I feel about myself as a person and how I pass my judgement towards people. I mean, Steven Covey's timeless advice, "seek to understand then to be understood" applies to my thought process. When you try understand why people act a certain way, you tend to be more positive in terms of your reactions towards them. Letting your ego decide how you treat people comes to me as weak. You've done a good job when you get your task accomplished and both sides walk out of the deal happy. Note that some people are not worth the attention, again, hit the ignore button.

Quoting Kanye West, "the prettiest people, do the ugliest things" fits the picture here. In highschool, I was ridiculed by people and part of the laughing stock in class. But I'm thankful for every bit of the experience because I learned how to deal with people and I worked hard to gain people's respect and be in the position I am in right now. It wasn't handed to me in a silver platter. I had to earn it, and it made me humble. On the real, I want to treat people right. Though sometimes I don't have the best words to say, I know my heart is in the right place. When I was young, I wanted to be wise. I hope this is another step towards that goal.

I'm not saying I'm better compared to other people but I try my best to be kind and be respective to other people. Talk bad less, and try to see the good more. The world as it is can be a hard place to live in and everyone's going through their fair share of a hard time. Let's try to be kind. It helps.

At least, real hustlers talk about wealth, health and happiness to everyone they meet.

Admiration

2011-02-05T02:49:00.002+08:00

I never had any sort of what you may call "celebrity crushes" because I think it distracts me from fully loving something real. When I love someone, I want to focus everything to that person. This girl is an exception and I"ll call this admiration because that's where I set the limit. No fandom, just a feeling of awe. I saw her in a movie and I was instantly mesmerized by the first look. I'm always a sucker for that certain quirkiness with just the right amount of substance with it. So far, from what I see in the roles she took, she played them well though each one of them are challenging and even diverse as well.

She makes life beautiful from the mundane of things. Exactly what I crave, because I savor the simple things and moments in life.

Because my path that I'm paving now is very different from what people might expect. Very scary for the ordinary but an adventure to the different.

Fe'vrier

2011-02-03T14:49:00.000+08:00

"Kissed her on the cheek said peace
Each and every week no sleep
Just dream states, far fantasies
Far fetched catches, stretching the galaxies
I asked her if she like the pasture
Where flowers bloom under grass skirts
Candle lit cancer sticks, casual cannabis
Can a bless be so simple"

There's a certain romanticism when February arrives. Although I've moved with singularity as I explored the facets of the opposite sex to find the meaning of being a real man, I find myself to be ready to commit now, as long as she has an open mind. I've traveled too far with my thoughts and fulfilled my shallow inquisitive phase to be in it just because of the presentation.

Again, I'm a man with a diverse sense of ideas, a mix of calculation and spontaneity. Whether taking it fast or slow should be determined by the chemistry. It's in how we chemically react to each other to balance the fine lines of artistry and find content. We should control the pace together, into which I want you to achieve satisfaction.

Well, that's how I'd set things up. The door to the rabbit hole.

Horizons

2011-01-31T04:10:00.006+08:00

Source

I am with living with one of the most profound knowledge that one could have. The chance to live free, a life of adventure and run away from the trappings of modern life. I just realized, I am currently living somewhat what I've pictured after knowing this. Sometimes I do forget the important or crucial phases of life I've tried and succeeded. Those hours of reading, researching didn't go to waste. I lived and am living what I've planned.

Either we realize it or not, we are living in the current from the results of our past decisions. Meaning, what you live now, you've set in motion 3 to 5 or even 10 years back. My first entrepreneurial experience was in primary school where I lead a comic book "production" with a handful of cartoonists who were classmates of mine. We just decided to draw cartoons in an exercise book, pass it around class and we've even competed with another group of people. We managed to produce a few volumes. Little that I know, that's somewhat like business with an organizational structure and a product to ship.

Now here I am, in university with planning and a few strokes of luck, I work lesser than everyone else but I achieve greater results. By understanding and learning the system, one can find points of leverage or cheatcodes. I don't have to know or do everything. I just need to know and be really good at the few good things that is in line with my goals. What's beautiful about it is I have more time and freedom than anyone else. Remember, money without time is pointless. Imagine what will I achieve if I take it to the next stage of my life, and take it to a whole other level?

Life doesn't have to be so damn hard. It really doesn't.

I understand the fundamental problems that will plague people lives. With how the game is developing, it's going to be real hard for people to be happy. To be content with their lives and live the life they really wanted. Question everything and find ways to build a future you desire.

For those who dare to dream and are willing to work hard for it, the future is ours.

Beauty

2011-01-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

In Before

2011-01-29T18:57:00.002+08:00

"I bottled my emotions and threw it to the sea. Hoping that a beautiful stranger finds it, and let it lead her to me"

I said it before and I"ll say it again. Life is beautiful.

Depth

2011-01-29T03:18:00.000+08:00

We see people's faces, but not their organs. Not who they are but who they appear to be. The game is so much more complex than we ever thought it would be. It is ruthless and it runs off people's greed. I'm sitting here thinking, how would life look like a few years down the line? The game is set as a zero sum game. When someone wins, someone else is losing. It's the cheque and balance where we are walking on a very thin line and it's getting thinner and thinner every single day.

Of course I'm talking about life to those who do not get my personal jargon.

Very few of us are deep thinkers or are dedicated in acquiring the cheatcodes in this game. We accept whatever is on the table without thinking thrice. We are trained and expected to be docile, obedient to the system. We go through all these levels and thinking that it's supposed to be that way. Again, those who might not make it shall pay the price.

I"ll take the road less taken. 2011, it's all about acquiring the knowledge to become a legit lifehacker. There must be more to life than this.

“It is not death that a man should fear, but he should fear never beginning to live.” – Marcus Aurelius

Composition

2011-01-27T20:13:00.001+08:00

I'm aging, getting older and going through the motions like everyone else but it doesn't mean everyone is getting wiser by the moment. I see people with their words, deeds and thoughts expressed in social networks. Is it freedom of expression or are we too careless with our words? But then again what are the wrongs and rights in this issue?

Am I living in an age where people are so self-centered that they don't think twice of the effects of their words and actions towards other people? Or has it always been like this just not broadcast through the internet? I guess behind people's backs, everyone's a bitch. We put these masks, this facade when we're face to face, fearing immediate backlash.

I'm just tired of playing the game everyone else is playing. I realize I had always been seeking that and being different has always been one of my favorite traits of mine. At each stage of my life, I've found small pieces of the puzzle and I still do. It's getting clearer and clearer and in time I"ll be at a whole different ball game, just living.

It's a question I love to ask people. You're alive but are you really living?

Calm & Clarity

2011-01-23T03:11:00.001+08:00

It has been the most difficult semester yet but I have gained a wealth of wisdom. There are two things that mean the world to a wise man. Calm in the face of the world, and clarity in his view of it.

I'm still learning a lot in this stage of life. I know things that most people would not and I am working towards my goals. This is my conviction and this is how I am staying true to myself.

I am Nazirul Hafiy, 23, still dreaming, and working to make them happen.

The Way I Am

2011-01-18T12:00:00.000+08:00

"I am, whatever you say I am, if I wasn't then why would I say I am"

Successful

2011-01-17T05:43:00.002+08:00

"I want the money, money and the cars, cars and the clothes, the hoes, I suppose, I just want to be successful"

I want it all, that's why I strive for it.

Flier Than The Rest

2011-01-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

"I'm just doing what I gotta do, flier than the rest of them"

A Glimpse

2011-01-16T12:35:00.000+08:00

A glimpse of the good life. Big ups for these dudes for holding down. I'm coming up.

Huh?

2011-01-15T11:24:00.006+08:00

Add a bit more swagger, add a bit more cockiness and fuck it, I'm turning my life around.

Hanyut

2011-01-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

>

2011-01-13T03:32:00.000+08:00

Something just made me so fucking depressed. I've been thinking about death more than living lately. Reality has a way to bitch slap you in the face aye?

1000 Awesome Things

2011-01-11T11:06:00.000+08:00

Inspired by his talk in TED, I"ll try to make my own list. Starting with this post.

#1000

Sipping a cup of 3 in 1 Nescafe after waking up.

I'd always have a thing for coffee, since I was in high school. I relate it to a certain romanticism and flirting with sleep with a push and pull effect or in simpler terms delaying the time to sleep. Waking up to it, calms me down.

Dirt of My Shoulders 1.0

2011-01-10T01:44:00.001+08:00

I'm just picking myself up, finding the strength to face tomorrow.

Dear God 2.0

2011-01-09T17:24:00.003+08:00

Be

2011-01-09T15:15:00.002+08:00

I"ll stop trying, and just be.

White.

2011-01-09T02:23:00.000+08:00

Between your needs and wants. It's such a delicate balance to play with.

From The First Second

2011-01-07T12:34:00.002+08:00

I wonder what must have crossed my parents mind when they first seen my face as I was born in this world. Did they see a hopeful future as they stare into my eyes? Did they foresee all the pleasures or all the pain I"ll go through? Did they wonder what type of person I"ll be, or who are the type of people I"ll be friends with?

My smiles, my laugh, my frowns, my cries.

Would I have the chance before my last hour, minute, second to love and be loved by a woman? They must have wondered what type of woman will be my girlfriend or my wife, the love of my life?

This year would be my 23rd year in this world. So far it's been good. I made good friends, accomplished things, had fun, been through the lows but sometimes it just feels like something is missing. I probably shouldn't sound so ungrateful with what people see as "doing good". It just sucks when you don't seem to get the one thing you've been searching for the most in life.

I do a lot of things hoping things would be easier and I try to put other people first. I try to make everyone feel good and ok. It's just that I feel so confused, bitter and empty right now. Going deep to see what's up.

From the first second till the present, I'm still hoping for better days.

2011

2011-01-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

Cheers to the good and bad times I've been through.

Cheers to the fly gentlemen and ladies that I roll with.

Cheers to the beautiful women all around the world.

Cheers to the bigger things we"ll achieve.

First post in the new year, let's do this.

Red Pill

2010-12-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

I've seen the matrix, and I'm ready to beat it.

Moment of Clarity

2010-12-27T11:22:00.002+08:00

“It’s not the work which kills people, it’s the worry. It’s not the revolution that destroys machinery it’s the friction.”
Henry Ward Beecher

Within Retrospect

2010-12-25T17:16:00.002+08:00

Revamping the site again.

Can I Take A Moment?

2010-12-24T11:15:00.001+08:00

Can I take a moment and just cry for everything I lack, for every time I've disappointed anyone, for every time I miss the opportunity to love and be loved and for every time I take things for granted and for every time things does not happen my way, and for every time I spent not being able to be loved by you,

I am surviving but life gets lonely without you.
I might not know you yet, but I am still waiting for you.
My chest hurts, but tomorrow might still be the day I found you.

Thoughts of loneliness, 24.12.2010

Now-ness.

2010-12-23T19:57:00.000+08:00

I don't know how people would classify my life, but it feels good to be alive right now.

Nike Sportswear AW 77

2010-12-12T12:17:00.001+08:00

I find this piece awesome cause I always had a thing with girls wearing Nikes and currently having a thing with short haired boyish but cute looking girls after watching You're Beautiful. Sanchia is an Indonesian based artist and you can check out her blog here.

Don't Forget

2010-12-10T19:01:00.000+08:00

"Struggle... yeah yeah, another sign that God love you

Cause on the low, bein po', make you humble

Keep they names in my rhymes to try and keep them out of trouble

Cause bein po', also teach you how to hustle"

Lupe Fiasco - Real

Deicide.

2010-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

They say life is all about living in the moment. Now I'm thinking and writing with the thoughts of the moment. I see people are either in the state of moving forward or moving backwards. The interesting matter to ponder about is that if you are not growing, then you are decreasing. Then the next question is how big is your growth?

We are creatures of habit and contradictions. We might think one thing, say another, and do another thing. What am I really trying to achieve here? Why am I not living the life that I'm suppose to be living? A blunt answer is that I am not good enough to even live my dream. I am not putting enough effort that my dreams deserve. Nothing speaks louder than quality, nothing speaks louder than money.

Look, you're here. Think about where you want to go, and do something about it.

Hippy Indie Chick

2010-11-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

Meeting you took me by surprise.
Out of all the spontaneous things I did, this was the best one.
We looked at each other, chatted, exchanged information and it all felt nice.
My curiosity indeed led me to something fun.

I haven't felt like this in awhile and it might be rude of me,
Pretty lady in my mind, I was wondering would you like to be the best part of me?

Highs to Lows

2010-11-30T10:25:00.000+08:00

"and I"ll be getting high just to balance out the lows"

I treat pain as a reminder of what I should be doing and should be. I might romanticize my past failures or successes in words and poetry in my posts as I will truly feel certain things at the height of emotions. At the end of the day, I"ll rather be sorry than safe and take the risks.

Cheers.